Today my husband and I kissed my youngest son Dominic goodbye at the entrance of Kings College, University of Cambridge in the UK. He begins as a fresher, all fresh with the excitement of seeing so many things new and of learning much. We hugged him very briefly, the son we both were instrumental in bringing into this world, and then we walked away, not looking back, but looking into the future of a life with just the two of us, as it was in the beginning.
Dominic words still ring in my ears 'Let go ma'... yeah... we have to let go but these two words are never easy to follow. They let go off the hands that once led them, fed them, washed them, rocked them and protected them, but they cannot let us let go of the love we possess in our hearts for them, our hearts that are concerned about their welfare, our hearts that long to hear their voice call us, our hearts that hold a million memories, our hearts that show the scars of hurt too.
Like the setting and rising of the sun, one day ends and another begins and countless such settings and risings have come to this one. This day is not easy to bear.
God knows. God loves. And God is always there.
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Dear Marianne,
May be I have not been in your experience in a big way, where my kids are yet to leave home. But I remember when I left my village home to come to the city, my first walk into the real world. I still feel the tinge of sadness I felt knowing that I will never go back home ...
As for leaving kids, on the other hand, Lord calls Sarath and me constantly to leave our "shore and launch into the deep", where there is so much of need for the Lord to enter into the family life of others. Most days it is so tough to leave crying Shevanthi or angry Sanjiv, who used to call God's work sucks. We have been tenacious to uphold our call. God seems to reward us now to see them slowly but surely getting into the journey. Kids who never understood Sinhala, now seem to cherish the messages which are a real challenge to all of us. That's what Sushi said after this 1st Sunday family message. Are you willing to be small for God's sake - As Jesus was in Philipians 2:6 -11, which is symblic through the Eucharist. He breaks in the mids of the community. So that we may do the same as we go among his lost children.
So the invitation is valid - "come" for you and Ajith and let Lord use you in a mightier way for his other chidlren. He will lookafter yours!
Love & prayers
Sureshnie
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